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Asobi Seksu
http://www.myspace.com/asobiseksu



I stared at the ceiling to regain some feeling
The days mixed with let downs and come downs and put downs
There's words and their feelings but none of them sit well
You say that you're happy when no one believes you
So I just take my time
We're treading deep water and can't seem to come by any place
Where we can force ourselves to know
Where is the space in our heads for hopeful thoughts to grow
So now I hope you'll rush to my side
A wish can't just choose to fall down by the wayside

There's bees in the attic
Acidic with panic
Bees in the attic
Acidic with panic

There's pills straws and bottles for all our bruised feelings
They mixed well in person but sting when they're leaving
So I will make up my mind
We're treading deep water and can't seem to come by any place
Where we can force ourselves to grow
Where is the space in our heads for hopeful thoughts to grow
So now I hope you'll rush to my side
We've threaded the needle and can't find a way out

There's bees in the attic
Acidic with panic
Bees in the attic
Acidic with panic

vocabulary12.07

fuss over
cranky 古怪
voraciously 狼吞虎嚥地
I became completely smitten with ___ 突然愛上的；一下子愛上的
I'm keeping this short because all of my creative juices are running dry after writing 5 pages about baroque Spanish poetry...

disastrous l 極糟糕的；災難性的

haggard 憔悴的，疲憊的
frazzled疲憊而煩躁的
vulgar庸俗的；粗俗的
cliché陳詞濫調；陳腐的套語
coppery color


introspective 好內省的；好反省的
vehemently 激烈地;暴烈地;強烈地
By adopting a wholly positive lifestyle you may get lumped into a group, subset or culture that you vehemently oppose with every fiber of your being,

versatility多用途,多功能

2010 simple life

2010 simple life:















i walked alone along the pathway to a unknown place, stuck with some personal emotion
which is brilliant, which is floating, which is unsure.
je ne sais pas

i hesitated

L'Étranger -- Albert Camus

我知道這世界我無處容身，只是你憑什麼審判我的靈魂?

漫長的度日如年不說，還膨脹到彼此交疊，最終界線消失，既定的名字也不復存在。對我來說，只有"昨天"或"明天"這種詞彙還保有原意。


有一天，看守員說我在這裡已經過了五個月，我雖然相信他，卻無法具體領會這句話的含意。在我看來這只是同一天在我的牢房裡不斷重演，我也不停繼續同樣的動作來消磨時間。


他熱烈的喊道:"我控訴這個男子帶著一顆罪犯的心埋葬了母親。"


某種程度上，他們像是把我排除在外進行訴訟。所有的過程都沒有我參予的餘地。我的命運就這樣被他人決定，沒有人問過我的看法。


律師的結辯陳述似乎永遠沒有盡頭，然而談到其中某一段時，道是引起我的注意。因為他說："的確，我殺了人" 接著他又以同樣的語氣繼續，亦即當他提到我時使用了第一人稱。我感到驚訝，忍不住向其中一個法警詢問是怎麼回事，他起先要我作聲，過了一會兒她才會道:"每個律師都來這一套" 我認為這種行為是在一次將我排除在我的案件之外，把我的存在降為零，還有從某種層面上，取代我的地位。不過，我覺得自己也已經完全從法庭陳悶的辯論中抽離。


與死亡這麼靠近的時候，媽媽必然有種解脫之感，而在準備重新再活一次。這是世上沒有人，沒有任何人有權為她哭泣，我也像他一樣，覺得已經準備好重新再活一次。彷彿那場暴努淨化了我的苦痛，掏空了我的希望；在布滿預兆與星星的夜空下，我第一次敞開心胸，欣然接受這世界溫柔的冷漠。體會到我與這份冷漠有多麼接近，簡直親如手足。我感覺自己曾經很快樂，而今也依舊如是。為了替一切畫上完美的句點，也為了教我不覺得那麼孤單，我只期盼行刑那天能聚集多觀眾，以充滿憎恨和煙霧的交蕭來送我最後一程。

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just now i received the phone call from troop, i was too surprised, indeed

Ida Maria

Oh My God -- Ida Maria

Find a cure
find a cure for my life

Oh my god
oh you think I'm in control
Oh my god
oh you think it's all for fun

Find a cure
find a cure for her life

Put a price
put a price on my soul

Oh my god
oh you think I'm in control
Oh my god
oh you think it's all for fun

Put a price
put a price on her soul

Find a cure
find a cure for my life

Put a price
put a price on my soul

Build a wall
Build a fortress around my heart

Oh my god
oh you think I'm in control
Oh my god
oh you think it's all for fun